Wait With Me A While. I Have Much To Tell You.

Wait with Me a while. I have much to tell you. These are the words I read and at the same time heard the voice of my Heavenly Father speak to me a few short weeks ago. 

I came into my bedroom, sat in the small corner of my closet and sobbed. My heart was heavy, my eyes growing ever so puffy, and my body tired and incapable of movement. I was angry at the evil that decided to rear its ugly head in my life, shaken by the reality of its presence, and hurt at the thought of it changing the course of my life. I cried out to Jesus to take whatever it was that had a hold over my body, my family, my world. Please take this! My heart kept screaming. But the hurt remained. I pulled myself out of my tiny closet, sat on the edge of my bed and picked up my book Jesus Calling by Sarah Young.

Wait with Me a while. I have much to tell you.

By the time I sat on my bed, a fog washed over my brain and my eyes had all but run out of tears. I was numb. My lips wanted to cry out to God again and again, but my body just sat there…frozen. My mind slowly began to spin over things from my past. Things that were going on in my life at that very moment and what these things could mean for my future. The thoughts began to spin so fast I became nauseous.

Wait with Me a while. I have much to tell you.

I had been begging God for an hour to take this hurt from me. Pleading with Him to give me peace. What I didn’t realize was that He had given me the answer the second I opened my book, but I chose to stay in my chaos instead of be still and listen.

Wait with Me a while. I have much to tell you.

Once again I sat in my closet, closed my eyes, and pretended to be sitting next to Jesus. Sometimes I picture us meeting daily at the top of a hill, under the shade of an old oak tree. There are days I run to Him, give Him a big hug and never take a breath as I tell Him about my day. Then there are days my body lacks the strength to climb. He meets me where I am and helps me to the shade. There have been many days when He’s had to carry me up the hill, because my legs weren’t able. Some days we laugh and He glows from the excitement He hears in my voice. Other days He holds me in His arms as I cry, or is gracious to listen to me as I vent my frustrations. But each day, He is there. I see His face and hear His voice tell me to wait with Him for a while, for He has much to tell me.

Sometimes what He tells me brings me great joy, and I want to fall at His feet in thankfulness. Other times I am brought to my knees in acknowledgment of just how much I need His comfort and strength. 

I know with certainty that I am walking the path He has chosen for me to walk. I believe with everything in me that He is guiding me, and that He will keep His covenant of love with His servant who continues wholeheartedly in His way (I Kings 8:23). I don’t know what tomorrow holds, but I know that I trust Him. So even as the role He has for me continues to become more difficult, it’s my prayer that my faith in Him is strengthened. It’s my prayer that I will remember to be still. Just be still and listen. Waiting with Him for a while. He has much to tell me.

I would like to encourage you as you walk today. Seek Him. Ask Him to reveal the path of Life He has for you, and stay on it. Allow His Spirit to fill you with indescribable peace and joy! Are you being still? Are you listening to Him as He speaks to you?

                                       Wait with me for a while. I have much to tell you. <3

<3 Summer